this gif set delivers
1 of 2 reasons I watch this show.
Sometimes, I feel like I don’t have time to worry about fat politics because my Black identity needs so much nurturing and attention in this acidic society and prevailing worldview of racism being okay. My mind tries to rationalize a separation and it manages but the reasons always fall apart. Its indoctrinated that my Blackness is separate and always comes first.
On this blog, I always say that I am a fat Black woman. Queer. Working class/poor. Light-skinned. Educated. Survivor of abuse. All these things. It feels so hopeless sometimes and way too complicated to be all of these things at the same time. If my head and heart could just explode, they probably would from being so full of all this stuff.
I could just force myself to lose weight. Then who would I be? Just another person who caved under other people’s opinions of my body and of me. Just another person who couldn’t handle looking into the maw of hatred and flying in its face. I’d be another person who couldn’t accept nor love myself regardless of anything and anyone else.
I’m much too stubborn for that. So I just keep trying, because I believe its real and I believe I can reach it someday.
Just taking it one day at a time
It feels like fall out so I can wear my heavier wool skirt. also made a matching hat from the left over fabric. the lines on the hat didn’t line up like i wanted them to but it’s not so bad it turned out better then i expected it too. the flight cap was child’s play compared to this one. and it’s my second cap ever.
the skirt is a wool blend just like the the pants(there was a sale i couldn’t help myself). Unlined, lining would have made the skirt twice as heavy. i won’t have any fly ups when a breeze come blowing in.
Dang, you’re so cute!
And that skirt and matching hat - nice! Lord please send me a sewing machine and sewing lessons. Thank you.
Why did I take my pants off…?
Then I had to go looking for them.
I don’t even remember doing it…
Rebel Cupcake is back in Brooklyn 8pm at Sugarland on Friday! All the info is here.
LOOK AT THIS AWESOMELY UNFLATTERING BUT STILL SUPER AWESOME PHOTO SOME FATPHOBIC BODY SHAMING ASSHOLE TOOK OF ME AND POSTED ON REDDIT!
Ugh, I love me. I’m so cute even when my wedgie holds me back from greatness. Also, lololol@fat shamers on Reddit who actively seek out fat people to photograph and then save those pictures to upload online to view over and over again just to be “disgusted” by all of my fat! Y’all wack ass e-thugging enema bags are sooooo basic. Hop off my dick because I’m 2fat2care4ever. But forealz, I love this picture. I’m serving fierce fat femme realness circa 3008 yer so 2000 and late, reppin’ Yung Dinero Records.
Also, lol@ the fact that this was at my Body Positivity Rally I organized. I just… I just can’t. People really don’t get it. These people who do this shit are the reason why body positivity, anti-body shaming, and anti-bullying matter. You decided that my existence as a fat woman was so funny, it just had to be put on the internet so the world could laugh at how “unattractive,” “unhealthy,” and “disgusting” I am. Because apparently if you find someone unattractive/ unappealing/ not your preference/ outside of the thin body ideal, it means that you can disrespect them to the point of dehumanization, invade their privacy by taking a picture of me unknowingly and then posting it on a public website, and then ridicule me online with other fat-shaming strangers. I FEEL AMAZING ABOUT MY LIFE RIGHT NOW, YOU GUYS.
Here’s the link if anyone wants to see the fuckery first hand. Also, the man who posted this is Heath Dwyer, #35 of the VCU Baseball Team (Its public information on VCU’s website, don’t come for me.). Thanks for being the best asshole you can be, Heath! I’m sure VCU values your body-shaming and cyberbullying! I know I sure do!
This inspiration that came at just the right moment. I just saw some crap about some ass finding a post I wrote on reddit and coming to tumblr to reblog talk shit.